Penguin RushMother
October and November 2004 - My mum had been sick and there were times when she lied down all day in bed, could hardly talk. One day, she came to me asking about when I would be calling this one girl. Her name is Nor Hariza Eisa. You see, her father is the brother of a relative of mine. I never met her or her parents before. But my family is quite close with her father’s three other siblings and her granny.What crushed me the most was when mum said that it was ok if I didn’t want to get married; knowing that I already bought a condo was good news enough for her. Right now, she didn’t want to bother so much about other people. She just needed to concentrate on her health and to prepare herself to meet God.
It was not that I didn’t want to settle down and have a family of my own. It was just that I would prefer if the girl was not introduced by my family members. Should things didn’t work out, there’d be a lot of things at stake here. Not just the relationship between me and the girl, but also between our families.
Furthermore, I still had this fear or should I say “unnecessary worry”. I was thinking if I were to marry a girl (anyone), I would not just marry her, but also her families and friends. Say, the girl liked me for who I was, but what if her families and friends didn’t. In fact they might think I was not good enough for her. Talk about low self esteem huh?
Putting that aside, after examining the ‘productivity’ of me finding my OWN girl, I realised that it had not been a successful quest. With the exception of one girl who remains as a friend, for the rest of the girls (not that many hee….), we didn’t even survive our first dates. One girl even had the pleasure of making me feel so low, by comparing me with her previous boyfriend.
God (Allah) had said that every creature on this earth was created in couples (i.e. everyone would have his/her own partner). So, I was thinking what if Nor Hariza was destined to be my soulmate, and for some reasons I let that opportunity slipped by. Therefore, I had given up the one partner that God had promised me to be with. I would end up die as a virgin hehe (trying to be a bit humourous, don’t think I should be over sentimental here).
So, the day came - I rang her up. I found out that currently Doctor Ija (her nickname) was working at Hospital Tangkak, although still staying with her family at Muar. We talked very briefly, since I sensed it was not the right time. She had just finished her ‘on-call’ earlier that day. But we continued ‘talking’ via SMS for the next couple of weeks. The feedback that I got (from reliable sources) was that I was a funny guy. Well, maybe I was (beaming with pride). The other reason was that if I were to discuss something serious (as in should we be more than just friends?), I would prefer to meet her in person, instead of via SMS or talking to her over the phone.
Labels: Anniversary, My Families
posted by The Pisces Man @ 9:22 pm
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